Before coming to Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland, I was so broken and lost. I tried taking care of a household; working 12 to 16 hour shifts, being a great wife, mother, and daughter-in-law. I could not handle all of the pressure. I began using meth to keep myself going and give me the energy to do all I was doing. I found out I was pregnant with my son, and I quit using. I managed to stay drug free for 10 years, but I never filled that void and emptiness I had inside. I thought I had gone so long without using that just one time would be no big deal. I had quit before and I could do it again. All it took was that one time, and I was hooked again. The grip was so strong that I could not shake it. I was too ashamed of myself to ask for help or even admit what I was doing.
All darkness comes to light! I lost my apartment, my job, and my identity and even sent my children away because I honestly did not want them to see me that way. When I lost my identity as a mother, I completely gave up. I could not stand the pain anymore. I was so tired of it all. I finally had enough, and I cried out to God to please help me. I asked Him to please make it all stop. About three weeks later, I was arrested. Praise God! God rescued me, and He brought me to Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland. My healing began piece by piece.
Since coming to Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland, I have learned what real Christ-like love truly is. I understand what His grace, mercy, and compassion really are. The Lord placed these people here at Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland in my life for such a time as this. They have prayed with me, for me, and loved me when I did not even love myself. They have believed in me and cheered me on when I did not believe in myself and wanted to give up. I have learned that I am a new creation in Christ Jesus, and the old person is dead and gone.
With all the love and support I have been shown, I have grown closer to my heavenly Father. I know how to love and give grace and mercy. I stand strong now. I speak life to others, as well as myself. I know that the same power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in me. I have a new life. I know who I am in Jesus Christ, and my relationship with my children is being restored day by day.
After I graduate Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland, I want to raise my children to know Christ. I want to be a light to others so they can see Christ’s love through me. I want to give back so that people can see there is hope and freedom through the love of Jesus Christ. The verse I stand on is Luke 7:50, “Then He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you, go in Peace.”