I grew up in a good home with good parents, but I was always seeking the approval of men. I used my appearance to find the love I was searching for. My mind was fixed on my looks, and how I would look better if I changed this or that about myself. I never felt good enough. I became depressed and down on myself. I started drinking and using drugs to numb the pain of not feeling good enough, and I even got cosmetic surgery to try and change what I did not like. All those things almost cost me my life. My organs started to fail. The doctor told my parents I would probably not make it. But God! My organs completely healed themselves. After a short while, I fell back into my addiction. It took legal issues that arose in my life to cause me to seek help and realize that I could not do this on my own. I sincerely wanted to change.
Since coming to Adult and Teen Challenge of the Upper Cumberland, I have learned about God’s unconditional love for me, and that He has a purpose for my life. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am made in God’s image. I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. I am not a recovering addict. I am recovered, because the blood of Jesus covers me! I now seek God. I no longer seek the approval of men because I now know I am royalty, and I am one of God’s children. I am no longer depressed. Jesus is my joy, and I want to share the joy and happiness I feel and have in my heart with others because of Jesus Christ!
Upon completing this program, I would like to help other women that do not feel worthy, good enough, and that struggle with appearance issues. I am here today to say that you are good enough, you are beautiful, and loved by the King! The verse I stand on is Psalm 34:5, “Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces!”